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[Hook]
This is hard on my end
This is not what I planned
Please try to understand
That I try
I know I’m a stranger
To myself I’m danger
Understand it’s major
I try
There’s weight on my shoulders
It feels like a boulder
I’m just getting older
And I try
[Verse: 1]
Why when I feel like im doing good I spiral down
But I feel locked up in my head with the final bound
I got friends but I don’t really like going out
At the end of the day I refill on my every doubt
I don’t count the days but every night feels like weeks and weeks
My techniques are week
I seek my peak
I leap to my pinnacle but I fall when I critique ‘cause I know that I need to be better
If I could sever my every thought then I would but I can’t, thats why I always seem bitter
I always endeavor when I’m under the weather even when the pressure is on
That letter is wrong
The pleasure is gone
Measure my happiness by nothing so it kinda feels like I’m low on the tank but i do got you
Other than that how do I feel? I wouldn’t know what else to do
If I’m a mirror then I’m a broken and shattered one
Hopin’ my standards are
On the up ‘n’ up
But I know they’re not
Or else I wouldn’t be here feeling alone as I jot
And sit here as I rot away
[Hook]
This is hard on my end
This is not what I planned
Please try to understand
That I try
I know I’m a stranger
To myself I’m danger
Understand it’s major
I try
There’s weight on my shoulders
It feels like a boulder
I’m just getting older
And I try
[Bridge: 1]
These cards that I’m dealt with
Don’t seem to be helpin’
All these things that I held in
Are awful thats how I felt and
[Verse: 2]
I feel pathetic that I can’t even redeem myself
Yeah
Kinda poetic but it doesn’t matter when they don’t see that I do excel those standards
when I read it I started to feel unwanted, used but useless and it hurts as well, I’m lookin’ for answers
I know that actions speak louder than words
But at the end of the day what were you thinking?
Don’t you realize that this hurts
And it burns
Now every time I do something or open my mouth, its always turning the wrong turns
I feel conflicted
The way that I’m feelin’ sucks ‘cause of this thing that I’m dealin’ with
I feel confused, mentally bruised
And just used
Thats funny ‘cause I also feel useless
I hate feeling feelings these feelings are killing me in mind
How do I savor the moment when I feel like I’m dead inside so I can’t really just sit back to enjoy the ride
[Hook]
This is hard on my end
This is not what I planned
Please try to understand
That I try
I know I’m a stranger
To myself I’m danger
Understand it’s major
I try
There’s weight on my shoulders
It feels like a boulder
I’m just getting older
And I try
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